I want to be fearless…

We’re 14 weeks out from the NPC Southern Idaho Showdown. Why, at this point in my life, would I feel the need to do such a thing? I’ll tell you. Because I’m tired of being afraid. Oh, there’s no denying it. I’ve whined and cried. I’ve threatened to quit. I’ve come close to turning my…

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My mom has dementia…

My mom was hospitalized just before Christmas. During this hospitalization, she was diagnosed with dementia. As horrible as this may sound, this diagnosis actually brought a bit of relief, initially. It meant there was an explanation for what had been going on for the last several years. Along with the relief, though, came a wave…

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The Magic Begins

I am officially into a brand spanking new chapter of my fitness journey. It’s so exciting, scary, exhilarating, and about as far out of my comfort zone as I can get. I often ask myself why I do these things. Why do I choose to do things that make me sweat with anticipation, anxiety, and…

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Sleeping in…

Sunday was the first day in what seemed like months (it’s really only been two) that I had an opportunity to sleep in. I was so tired when I crawled into bed Saturday night, I thought I might sleep until noon. The thought was glorious, but it didn’t last, I was wide awake by 6:30AM.…

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Ch-ch-ch-changes…

I went to bed last Sunday evening with the intention and expectation that the week ahead was going to be the best ever. I set my alarm for 3:45 a.m. and drifted off to sleep. When my alarm went off, I hopped out of bed, grabbed breakfast, and headed to the gym. As I pulled…

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Be authentic, be true, be you!

Merriam-Webster defines the word authentic as: true to one’s own personality, spirit, or character: is sincere and authentic with no pretentions. Discovering who we really are is a tough job. It took me my entire life to grow into my authentic self. It was about the same time I really started getting into the good stuff of…

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Lift Heavy…

I didn’t get up this morning when the alarm went off. I woke up. But I didn’t get up. I feel like I should be disappointed. I’ve been so tired so I decided to stay in bed, under the warm covers, and rest. If it happens again, then I’ll be disappointed. But not today. I…

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The beginning…

There are 135 days until the NPC Southern Idaho Showdown and I want to compete. That’s my goal. There, I said it. Whew. What a relief. That was freaking scary, but now it’s out of the way and everybody knows. I’ve held off saying anything concrete because I’m a chicken shit and I want everything…

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Fear is not the boss of me…

I used to wonder how people could drive so confidently in the dark. How could they tell the oncoming cars weren’t heading straight for them? How did they know when it was safe to turn in front of other cars, or switch lanes? It was years before I realized that not everyone suffered from night…

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