This year has been packed with opportunities for growth. Either that, or life is always offering lessons, but I just haven’t recognized them, so I’ve missed them until now. And if that’s the case, shame on me. But I’m ready now, and wow! They just keep coming; one right after the other.
I’ve been me my entire life, 51 years to be exact. Yet I’ve been searching for myself for years. I’ve been searching for the answers to so many questions. Who am I? Who am I supposed to be? What’s my calling in life? What’s my purpose? What am I meant to do? What are my gifts? Do I even have any gifts? What can I offer this world? How can I leave the world a better place? What should I be when I grow up? What if I never find the answers to these questions? How freaking depressing!! If you’re asking these questions, my advice is just stop. It’ll make you crazy.
I stopped asking the questions and started paying attention to what was going on around me. I paid attention to how I reacted to different people and different situations. I started picking up little tiny lessons here and there. For instance, if something made me uncomfortable, I thought about it. I picked it apart until I figured out exactly what it was that made me uneasy. This may sound obsessive. It probably is. But I don’t like to feel uncomfortable without knowing the reason. Once I grasp that, then I either don’t put myself back in that situation or if I do, I handle it differently, with more confidence. Knowledge is power. Never been a truer statement.
If something sparks excitement or passion, I pay attention to that too. I ask questions until I understand where that excitement or passion is coming from so I know how to respond. This comes with its own set of challenges thanks to my addictive personality. That’s another Blog post though!
Being uncomfortable isn’t a bad thing. If we’re always comfortable then we’re not challenging ourselves. Being excited or passionate isn’t always a good thing, depending on how we direct that excitement or passion. It’s all about processing information, understanding ourselves and how we respond to our environment.
For me, life is a gift. I want to get everything I can out of this life so I will always be looking for that next adventure! I’ll always be looking for a lesson to learn, a skill to build, a fear to overcome, a weakness to strengthen, some mischief to manage (winks to the Harry Potter fans).
I’m super lucky to have a family that understands my inability to sit still in the same place for more than a moment. Not only do they understand it, they sometimes seem to enjoy it. If I’m fortunate, I might even get a family member to join me for an adventure now and then.
Be amazing! Be strong! Be real!