Category: Change

I want to be fearless…

We’re 14 weeks out from the NPC Southern Idaho Showdown. Why, at this point in my life, would I feel the need to do such a thing? I’ll tell you. Because I’m tired of being afraid. Oh, there’s no denying it. I’ve whined and cried. I’ve threatened to quit. I’ve come close to turning my…

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The Magic Begins

I am officially into a brand spanking new chapter of my fitness journey. It’s so exciting, scary, exhilarating, and about as far out of my comfort zone as I can get. I often ask myself why I do these things. Why do I choose to do things that make me sweat with anticipation, anxiety, and…

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Ch-ch-ch-changes…

I went to bed last Sunday evening with the intention and expectation that the week ahead was going to be the best ever. I set my alarm for 3:45 a.m. and drifted off to sleep. When my alarm went off, I hopped out of bed, grabbed breakfast, and headed to the gym. As I pulled…

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Lift Heavy…

I didn’t get up this morning when the alarm went off. I woke up. But I didn’t get up. I feel like I should be disappointed. I’ve been so tired so I decided to stay in bed, under the warm covers, and rest. If it happens again, then I’ll be disappointed. But not today. I…

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The beginning…

There are 135 days until the NPC Southern Idaho Showdown and I want to compete. That’s my goal. There, I said it. Whew. What a relief. That was freaking scary, but now it’s out of the way and everybody knows. I’ve held off saying anything concrete because I’m a chicken shit and I want everything…

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Holidays? What holidays?

This is the first moment I’ve had to sit down and reflect on the 2017 holiday season. There are very few signs that we even celebrate in or outside of my home right now. My hall is full of packed and unpacked boxes, two rooms have been emptied, kitchen cupboards are open, and shit is…

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The Cupcake and a Little More

The Cupcake This beautiful cupcake has been in my fridge since my grandson’s birthday party last Saturday. I totally planned on eating it. That’s a lie. I actually never planned on eating it. But for some reason, it was super important for me to take it. That way, if I decided I wanted it, it…

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Rise & Shine

This has been a rough week. I’m working to change my sleep schedule and habits, which I’m learning is not an easy thing to do… at all. My goal is to get my workouts in early. I feel more focused and have more energy throughout the day and then my evenings can be a little…

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